So there is this guy...

So there is this guy...and he is totally amazing =)I have known him since grade three and never really though of him as cute or someone i would date. But i am now almost out of high school and he is one of the nicest guys i know. He treats me like gold. Calls me pumpkin all the time and it just makes me feel so good being around him. But he says that i have to give him time. Time to think...time to decide if he actually wants to be in a relationship with me. And it is so hard to wait. But im scared that if i dont wait that i will push him away and he wont want to be with me at all. So i have decided to stop talking about it and just take it easy and wait...wait the billion years its going to take him to make up his mind. But he is so worth it..so worth the wait =)

Liar liar pants on fire...

Don't you hate it when someone promises they will go somewhere with you and then at the latest moment they are like "oh i should really start to studdy for diplomas" By the way diplomas are over a week away! Then they say "but whatever ill come, i can study next week" And then THAT NIGHT you get a voice mail saying "umm yeeaaa my MOM said i HAVE to stay home this weekend and STUDY" Like thats totally bull. Dont make up excses. Jus t say you dont want to go. Its not that hard.

It's really over...

It took us 13 years and now its all over...Graduation...it is the begging and the end. The beginning of a new life. Our life. They tell us its a totally different world after high school...but is it really? Is there no drama? No fighting? No immature relationships? No problems? Well the "Real World" is alot like high school...the way i see it is all the problems you had in high school just get bigger once you are out in the "Real World". Life is way more stressful...a REAL job...a relationship...maybe university..and eventually a family for most people. But Graduation is also the end. It ends alot of things. It ends friendships & relationships. It may be the end of education for some. Leaving high school is a scary thought. People drift apart...friendships end. People change..for better or for worse..everything changes. I have never thought about this until last night.(thanks jennine) I am never going to see some people again. And that is so sad. Some of the people that you JUST hang out with at school will never see you again after you are out of school...it breaks my heart to think about leaving. High shcool is over...its really over...and its one of the saddest days ever! I just might cry ='(

True Bestest Buddies...no lie...

So i have this one friend and she is pretty sweet. I have been friends with her almost my whole life. We became friends in Grade K. We would ALWAYS hang out at each other's houses. and beg our parents to let us stay the night. I remember we FINALLY got them to let us have sleepovers on school nights. Yea that's right i said on school nights! And then i remember this one time..well more then once...but i think in grade 4 or 5...she would tell me that my mom was at the school and i would run to see...but she was never there. So my friend would laugh and id get mad. And then i would push her....yeaaa that wasn't very nice of me... But hey...she shouldn't of lied to me haha. No it was very mean of me to do that. Then in middle school we sort of drifted apart. Now that i think about it i dont think i saw her at all during middle school...other then grade 6 band class. Thinking about that now makes me sad...how can you go from being bestest buddies to not even seeing each other. We are now in grade 12...we are done high school in about a week and a half...and it is so awesome that we are hanging out again...she is the one person i will always love. Who will come to my wedding no matter how far apart we drift. Who will always be there for me...even when i get a divorce...cuz its bound to happen to me haha. This is the best friend i have ever had and she has always been there for me. I will never let this lovley lady go. She will be in my heart forever! I love you JB <3>

People these days...

So i have decided that people these days need to chill out! Like honestly...just cuz you can't have someone doesn't mean someone else can't have them either. Like grow up. Don't be so immature. You need to move on with your life and find someone else...OH WAIT you HAVE someone else so just let it go! Forget about the something you thought you two had. Cuz you didn't have anything. So just please calm down...breath a little...maybe go have a cham and realize that life goes on. Just cuz you aren't the one for him doesn't mean he has to be alone forever. Be mature and stop trying to make decisions for me. And stop trying to tell me i can't. Oh you just wait...and you will realize that i can do whatever the hell i want. No matter how much you bitch and complain...im sitll going to do it. Cuz its what is going to make me happy. Im doing this for me...not for you. Thanks =)

It's only the beginning...

Alrighty...so this is my first time blogging...ever! So i will have to get used to it. I have never really thought about blogging but a friend ( the one and only jennine ) got me started. So i decided to give it a try...so we shall see how it goes..wish me luck =)